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March 20. Long talk with ly on the subjey revolt.He had his grand manner on. I supple and suave. Attacked me on the score of love for ones mother. Tried to imagine his mother: ot. Told me once, in a moment of thoughtlessness, his father was sixty-one when he was born. see him. Strong farmer type. Pepper and salt suit. Square feet. U, grizzled beard. Probably attends c matches. Pays his dues regularly but not plentifully to Father Dwyer of Larras. Sometimes talks to girls after nightfall. But his mother? Very young or very old? Hardly the first. If so, ly would not have spoken as he did. Old then. Probably, and ed. Hence lys despair of soul: the child of exhausted loins.
March 21, m. Thought this in bed last night but was too lazy and free to add to it. Free, yes. The exhausted loins are those of Elizabeth and Zacchary. Then he is the precursor. Item: he eats chiefly belly ba and dried figs. Read locusts and wild honey. Also, when thinking of him, saw always a stern severed head or death mask as if outlined on a grey curtain or veronica. Decollation they call it in the gold. Puzzled for the moment by saint John at the Latin gate. What do I see? A decollated percurs to pick the lock.
March 21, night. Free. Soul free and fancy free. Let the dead bury the dead. Ay. Ahe dead marry the dead.
March 22. In pany with Lynch followed a sizeable hospital nurse. Lynchs idea. Dislike it. Two lean hungry greyhounds walking after a heifer.
March 23. Have not seen her sihat night. Unwell? Sits at the fire perhaps with mammas shawl on her shoulders. But no<big></big>t peevish. A nice bowl of gruel? Wont you now?
March 24. Began with a discussion with my mother. Subject: B.V.M. Handicapped by my sex and藏书网 youth. To escape held up relatioween Jesus and Papa against those-between Mary and her son. Said religion was not a lying-in hospital. Mother indulgent. Said I have a queer mind and have read too muot true. Have read little and uood less. Then she said I would e back to faith because I had a restless mind. This means to leave church by back door of sin aer through the skylight of repentance. ot repent. Told her so and asked for sixpence. Got threepence.
Theo college. Other wrah little round head rogues eye Ghezzi. This time about Bruno the Nolan. Began in Italian and ended in pidgin English. He said Bruno was a terrible heretic. I said he was terribly burned. He agreed to this with some sorrow. Then gave me recipe for what he calls risotto alla bergamasca. When he pronounces a soft o he protrudes his full al lips as if he kissed the vowel. Has he? And could he repent? Yes, he could: and cry two round rogues tears, one from each eye.
Crossing Stephens, that is, my green, remembered that his trymen and not mine had ied what ly the ht called ion. A quartet of them, soldiers of the y-seventh infantry regiment, sat at the foot of the cross and tossed up dice for the overcoat of the crucified.
Went to library. Tried to read three reviews. Useless. She is not out yet. Am I alarmed? About what? That she will never be out again.
Blake wrote:
I wonder if William Bond will die
For assuredly he is very ill.
Alas, poor William!
I was o a diorama in Rotunda. At the end were pictures of big nobs. Am.ong them William Ewart Gladstone, just then dead. Orchestra played O Willie, we have missed you.
A race of clodhoppers!
March 25, m. A troubled night of dreams. Want to get them off my chest.
A long curving gallery. From the floor asd pillars of dark vapours. It is peopled by the images of fabulous kings, set in stoheir hands are folded upon their knees in token of weariness and their eyes are darkened for the errors of men go up before them for ever as dark vapours.
Strange figures advance as from a cave. They are not as tall as men. One does not seem to stand quite apart from aheir faces are phosphorest, with darker streaks. They peer at me and their eyes seem to ask me something. They do not speak.
March 30. This evening ly was in the porch of the library, proposing a problem to Dixon and her brother. A mother let her child fall into the ill harping oher. A crocodile seized the child. Mother asked it back. Crocodile said all right if she told him what he was going to do with the child, eat it or It.
This mentality, Lepidus would say, is indeed bred out of your mud by the operation of your sun.
And mine? Is it not too? Then into Nile mud with it!
April 1. Disapprove of this last phrase.
April 2. Saw her drinking tea aing cakes in Johnstons, Mooney and OBriens. Rather, lynx-eyed Lynch saw her as we passed. He tells me ly was ihere by brother. Did he bring his crocodile? Is he the shining light now? Well, I discovered him. I protest I did. Shining quietly behind a bushel of Wicklow bran.
April 3. Met Davin at the cigar shop opposite Findlaters church. He was in a black sweater and had a hurley stick. Asked me was it true I was going away and why. Told him the shortest way to Tara was via Holyhead. Just then my father came up. Introdu. Father polite and observant. Asked Davin if he might offer him some refreshment. Davin could not, was going to a meeting. When we came away father told me he had a good ho eye. Asked me why I did not join a rowing club. I preteo think it over. Told me then how he broke Pehers heart. Wants me to read law. Says I was cut out for that. More mud, more crocodiles.
April 5. Wild spring. Scudding clouds. O life! Dark stream of swirling bogwater on which apple-trees have cast down their delicate flowers. Eyes of girls among the leaves. Girls demure and romping. All fair or auburn: no dark ohey blush better. Houpla!
April 6. Certainly she remembers the past. Lynch says all women do. Then she remembers the time of her childhood - and mine, if I was ever a child. The past is ed in the present and the present is living only because it brings forth the future. Statues of women, if Lynch be right, should always be fully draped, one hand of the woman feelifully her own hinder parts.
April 6, later. Michael Robartes remembers fottey and, when his arms her round, he presses in his arms the loveliness which has long faded from the world. Not this. Not at all. I desire to press in my arms the loveliness which has not yet e into the world.
April 10. Faintly, uhe heavy night, through the silence of the city which has turned from dreams to dreamless sleep as a weary lover whom no caresses move, the sound of hoofs upon the road. Not so faintly now as they e he bridge; and in a moment, as they pass the darkened windows, the silence is clo?９9ｌib.ven by alarm as by an arrow. They are heard now far away, hoofs that shine amid the heavy night as gems, hurrying beyond the sleeping fields to what journeys end - what heart? - bearing what tidings?
April 11. Read what I wrote last night. Vague words for a vague emotion. Would she like it? I think so. Then I should have to like it also.
April 13. That tundish has been on my mind for a long time. I looked it up and find it English and good old blunt English too. Damn the dean of studies and his funnel! What did he e here for to teach us his own language or to learn it from us. Damn him one way or the other!
April 14. John Alphonsus Mulrennan has just returned from the west of Ireland. European and Asiatic papers please copy. He told us he met an old man there in a mountain . Old man had red eyes and short pipe. Old man spoke Irish. Mulrennan spoke Irish. Then old man and Mulrennan spoke English. Mulrennan spoke to him about universe and stars. Old man sat, listened, smoked, spat. Then said:
-- Ah, there must be terrible queer creatures at the latter and of the world.
I fear him. I fear his red-rimmed horny eyes. It is with him I must struggle all through this night till day e, till he or I lie dead, gripping him by the sihroat till.
Till what? Till he yield to me? No. I mean no harm.
April 15. Met her today point blank in Grafton Street. The crowd brought us together. We both stopped. She asked me why I never came, said she had heard all sorts of stories about me. This was only to gain time. Asked me was I writing poems? About whom? I asked her. This fused her more and I felt sorry and mean. Turned off that valve at ond opehe spiritual-heroic refrigerating apparatus, ied and patented in all tries by Dante Alighieri. Talked rapidly of myself and my plans. In the midst of it unluckily I made a suddeure of a revolutionary nature. I must have looked like a fellow throwing a handful of peas into the air. People began to look at us. She shook hands a moment after and, in going away, said she hoped I would do what I said.
Now I call that friendly, dont you?
Yes, I liked her today. A little or much? Dont know. I liked her and it seems a new feeling to me. Then, in that case, all the rest, all that I thought I thought and all that I felt I felt, all the rest before now, in fact.O, give it up, old chap! Sleep it off!
April 16. Away! Away!
The spell of arms and voices: the white arms of roads, their promise of close embraces and the black arms of tall ships that stand against the moon, their tale of distant nations. They are held out to say: We are alone - e. And the voices say with them: We are your kinsmen. And the air is thick with their pany as they call to me, their kinsman, making ready to go, shaking the wings of their exultant and terrible youth.
April 26. Mother is putting my new sedhand clothes in order. She prays now, she says, that I may learn in my own life and away from home and friends what the heart is and what it feels. Amen. So be it. Wele, O life, I go to enter for the millionth time the reality of experiend te in the smithy of my soul the ued sy race.
April 27. Old father, old artificer, stand me now and ever in good stead.
Dublin, 1904
Trieste, 1914
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