JOAN MARY LOVE NEVER FORGOTTEN

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    Poor Aurelius. He was so very weary. He hardly seemed to notice as I slipped my arm through his. But theuro face me fully. “Perhaps it’s better not to have a story at all, rather than have ohat keeps ging. I have spent my whole life chasing after my story and never quite catg it. Running after my story when I had Mrs. Love all along. She loved me, you know.”

    ‘I never doubted it.“ She had been a good mother to him. Better thaher of the twins could have been. ”Perhaps it’s better not to know,“ I suggested.

    He looked from the gravestoo the white sky. “Do you think so?”

    ‘No.“

    ‘Then why suggest it?“

    I slid my arm from his and tucked my cold hands uhe arms of my coat. “It’s what my mother would say. She thinks a weightless story is better thahat’s too heavy.”

    ‘So. My story is a heavy one.“

    I said nothing, and when the silence grew long, I told him not his story but my own.

    ‘I had a sister,“ I began. ”A twin.“

    He turo face me. His shoulders were solid and wide against the sky and he listened gravely to the story I poured out to him.

    ‘We were joined. Here—“ and I brushed my hand down my left side. ”She couldn’t live without me. She needed my heart to beat for her. But I couldn’t live with her. She was draining my strength. They separated us, and she died.“

    My other hand joihe first over my scar, and I pressed hard.

    ‘My mother old me. She thought it was better for me not to know.“

    ‘A weightless story.“

    ‘Yes.“

    ‘But you do know.“

    I pressed harder. “I found out by act.”

    ‘I am sorry,“ he said.

    I felt my hands taken by his, and he enclosed both of them into one great fist. Then, with his other arm, he drew me to him. Through layers of coats I felt the softness of his belly, and a rush of noise came to my ear. It is the beating of his heart, I thought. A huma. By my side. So this is what it’s like. I listened.

    Then we dreart.

    ‘And is it better to know?“ he asked me.

    ‘I ’t tell you. But once you know, it’s impossible to go back.“

    ‘And you know my story.“

    ‘Yes.“

    ‘My true story.“

    ‘Yes.“

    He barely hesitated. Just took a breath and seemed to grow a little bigger.

    ‘You had better tell me, then,“ he said.

    I told. And while I told we walked, and when I fielling we were standing at the place where the snowdrops were pointing through he whiteness of the snow.

    With the casket in his hands, Aurelius hesitated. “I have a feeling this is against the rules.”

    I thought it was, too. “But what else  we do?”

    ‘The rules don’t work for this case, do they?“

    ‘Nothing else would be right.“

    ‘e on, then.“

    We used the cake ko gouge a hollow in the frozeh above the coffin of the woman I knew as Emmeline. Aurelius tipped the ashes on it, and we replaced the earth to cover them. Aurelius pressed down with all his weight, and then we rearrahe flowers to hide the disturbance.

    ‘It will level out with the melting of the snow,“ he said. And he brushed the snow from his trs.

    ‘Aurelius, there is more to your story.“

    I led him to another part of the churchyard. “You know about your mother now. But you had a father, too.” I indicated Ambrose’s gravestone.

    The A and the S on the piece of paper you showed me. It was his name. His bag, too. It was used for carrying game. That explains the feather.“

    I paused. It was a lot for Aurelius to take in. When after a long moment he nodded, I went on. “He was a good man. You are very like him.”

    Aurelius stared. Dazed. More knowledge. More loss. “He is dead. I see.”

    ‘That’s not all,“ I said softly. He turned his eyes slowly to mine, and I read ihe fear that there was to be o the story of his abando.

    I took his hand. I smiled at him.

    ‘After you were born, Ambrose married. He had another child.“

    It took a moment for him to realize what it meant, and when he did, a jolt of excitement brought his frame to life. “You mean… I have… And she… he… she—”

    ‘Yes! A sister!“

    The smile grew broad on his face.

    I went on. “And she has her own children in turn. A boy and a girl!”

    ‘A niece! And a nephew!“

    I took his hands into mio stop them shaking. “A family, Aurelius. Your family. You know them already. And they are expeg you.”

    I could hardly keep up with him as we passed through the lych-gate and strode down the aveo the white gatehouse. Aurelius never looked back. Only at the gatehouse did we pause, and that was because of me.

    ‘Aurelius! I almost fot to give you this.“

    He took the white envelope and ope, distracted by joy. He drew out the card and gave me a look. “What? Not really?”

    ‘Yes. Really.“

    ‘Today?“

    ‘Today!“ Something possessed me at that moment. I did something I have never done in my life before and never expected to do, either. I opened my mouth and shouted at the top of my voice, ”HAPPY BIRTHDAY!“

    I must have been a bit mad. In any case, I felt embarrassed. Not that Aurelius cared. He was standing motionless, arms stretched out oher side of him, eyes closed and face turned skyward. All the happiness in the world was falling on him with the snow.

    In Karen’s garden the snow bore the prints of chase games, small footprints and smaller ones following one another in broad circles. The children were o be seen, but as we got nearer we heard their voices ing from the niche in the yew tree.

    ‘Let’s play Snow White.“

    ‘That’s a girls’ story.“

    ‘What story do you want to play?“

    ‘A story about rockets.“

    ‘I don’t want to be a rocket. Let’s be boats.“

    ‘We were boats yesterday.“

    Hearing the latch of the gate, they peered out of the tree, and with their hoods hiding their hair, you could hardly tell brother from sister.

    ‘It’s the cake man!“

    Karen stepped out of the house and came across the lawn. “Shall I tell you who this is? ” she asked the children as she smiled shyly at Aurelius. “This is your uncle.”

    Aurelius looked from Karen to the children and back to Karen, his eyes scarcely big enough to take ihing he wao. He was lost for words, but Karen reached out a tentative hand, aook it in his.

    ‘It’s all a bit…“ he began.

    ‘Isn’t it?“ she agreed. ”But we’ll get used to it, won’t we?“

    He nodded.

    The children were staring with curiosity at the adult se.

    ‘What are you playing?“ Karen asked, to distract them.

    ‘We don’t know,“ the girl said.

    ‘We ’t decide,“ said her brother.

    ‘Do you know any stories?“ Emma asked Aurelius.

    ‘Only one,“ he told her.

    ‘Only one?“ She was astounded. ”Has it got any frogs in it?“

    ‘No.“

    ‘Dinosaurs?“

    ‘No.“

    ‘Secret passages?“

    ‘No.“

    The children looked at each other. It wasn’t much of a story, clearly.

    ‘We know loads of stories,“ Tom said.

    ‘Loads,“ she echoed dreamily. ”Princesses, frogs, magic castles, fairy godmothers—“

    ‘Caterpillars, rabbits, elephants—“

    ‘All sorts of animals.“

    ‘All sorts.“

    They fell into silence, absorbed in shared plation of tless different worlds.

    Aurelius watched them as though they were a miracle.

    Then they returo the real world. “Millions of stories,” the boy said.

    ‘Shall I tell you a story?“ the girl asked.

    I thought perhaps Aurelius had had enough stories for one day, but he nodded his head.

    She picked up an imaginary objed placed it in the palm of her right hand. With her left she mimed the opening of a book cover. She glanced up to be sure she had the full attention of her panions. Then her eyes returo the book in her hand, and she began.

    ‘Once upon a time…“

    Karen and Tom and Aurelius: three sets of eyes all resting on Emma aorytelling. They would be all right together.

    Unnoticed, I stepped back from the gate and slipped away along the street.

    I will not publish the biography of Vida Wihe world may well be agog for the story, but it is not mio tell. Adeline and Emmelihe fire and the ghost, these are stories that belong to Aurelius now. The graves in the churchyard are his; so is the birthday that he  mark as he chooses. The truth is heavy enough without the additional weight of the world’s scrutiny on his shoulders. Left to their own devices, he and Karen  turn the page, start afresh.

    But time passes. One day Aurelius will be no more; one day Karen, too, will leave this world>.９９ｌｉb.</a>. The children, Tom and Emma, are already more distant from the events I have told here than their uncle. With the help of their mother they have begun te their own stories; stories that are strong and solid and true. The day will e when Isabelle and Charlie, Adeline and Emmelihe Missus and John-the-dig, the girl without a name, will be so far in the past that their old bones will have no power to cause fear or pain. They will be nothing but an old story, uo do any harm to anyone. And when that day es—I will be old myself by then—I shall give Tom and Emma this dot. To read and, if they choose, to publish.

    I hope that they will publish. For until they do, the spirit of that ghost-child will haunt me. She will roam in my thoughts, linger in my dreams, my memory her only playground. It is not much, this posthumous life of hers, but it is not oblivion. It will be enough, until the day when Tom and Emma release this manuscript and she will be able to exist more fully after death than she ever lived before it.

    And so the story of the ghost girl is not to be published for many years, if at all. That does not mean, however, that I have nothing to give the world immediately to satisfy its curiosity about Vida Winter. For there is something. At the end of my last meeting with Mr. Lomax, I was about to leave wheopped me. “Just one more thing.” And he opened his desk and took out an envelope.

    I had that envelope with me when I slipped unremarked out of Karen’s garden and turned my steps back toward the lodge gates. The ground for the new hotel had been flattened, and when I tried to remember the old house, I could find only photographs in my memory. But then it came to me how it always seemed to face the wrong way. It had been twisted. The new building was going to be much better. It would face straight toward you.

    I diverged from the gravel pathway to cross the snow-covered lawn toward the old deer park and the woods. The dark branches were heavy with snow, whietimes fell in soft swathes at my passing. I came at last to the vantage point on the slope. You  see everything from there. The churd its graveyard, the wreaths of flowers bright against the snow. The lodge gates, chalk-white against the blue sky. The coach house, denuded of its shroud of thorns. Only the house had gone, and it had gone pletely. The men in their yellow hats had reduced the past to a blank page. We had reached tipping point. It was no longer possible to call it a demolition site. Tomorrow, today perhaps, the workers would return and it would bee a stru site. The past demolished, it was time for them to start building the future.

    I took the envelope from my bag. I had been waiting. For the right time. The right place.

    The letters on the envelope were curiously misformed. The urokes either faded into nothing or else were engraved into the paper. There was no sense of flow: Each letter gave the impression of having been pleted individually, at great cost, the  uaken as a new and dauntierprise. It was like the hand of a child or a very old person. It was addressed to Miss Margaret Lea.

    I slit open the flap. I drew out the tents. And I sat on a felled tree to read it, because I never read standing up.

    Dear Margaret,Here is the piece I told you about.

    I have tried to finish it, and find that I ot. And so this story that the world has made so much fuss about must do as it is. It is a flimsy thing: something of nothing. Do with it what you will.

    As for titles, the ohat springs to my mind is “derella’s Child, ” but I know quite enough about readers to uand that whatever I might choose to call it, it will only ever go by ole in the world, and it won’t be mine.

    There was no signature. No name.

    But there was a story.

    It was the story of derella, like I’d never read it before. Laic, hard and angry. Miss Winter’s sentences were shards of glass, brilliant ahal.

    Picture this, the story begins. A boy and a girl; one rich, one poor. Most often it’s the girl who’s got no gold and that’s how it is iory I’m telling. There didn’t have to be a ball. A walk in the woods was enough for these two to stumble into each other’s paths. Once upon a time there was a fairy godmother, but the rest of the time there was his story is about me of those other times. irl’s pumpkin is just a pumpkin, and she crawls home after midnight, blood on her petticoats, violated. There will be a footman at the door with moleskin slippers tomorrow. She knows that already. She’s not stupid. She is pregnant, though.

    In the rest of the story, derella gives birth to a girl, raises her in poverty and filth, abandons her after a few years in the grounds of the house owned by her violator. The story ends abruptly.

    Halfway along a path in a garden she has never been to before, cold and hungry, the child suddenly realises she is alone. Behind her is the garden door that leads into the forest. It remains ajar. Is her mother behind it still? Ahead of her is a shed that, to her child’s mind, has the look of a little house. A place she might shelter. Who knows, there might even be something to eat.

    The garden door? Or the little house?

    Door? Or house?

    The child hesitates.

    She hesitates…

    And the story ends there.

    Miss Winter’s earliest memory? Or just a story? The story ied by an imaginative child to <var></var>fill the space where her mht to have been?

    The thirteenth tale. The final, the famous, the unfiory.

    I read the story and grieved.

    Gradually my thoughts turned away from Miss Winter and to myself. She might not be perfect, but at least I had a mother. Was it too late to make something of ourselves? But that was aory.

    I put the envelope in my bag, stood up and brushed the bark dust from my trousers before heading back to the road.

    I was eo write the story of Miss Winter’s life, and I have do. There is really nothing more I need do in order to fulfill the terms of the tract. One copy of this dot is to be deposited with Mr. Lomax, who will store it in a bank vault and then arrange for a large amount of moo be paid to me. Apparently he doesn’t even have to check that the pages I give him are not blank.

    ‘She trusted you,“ he told me.

    Clearly she did trust me. Her iions in the tract that I never read ned are quite unmistakable. She wao tell me the story before she died; she wanted me to make a record of it. What I did with it after that was my business. I have told the solicitor about my iiarding Tom and Emma, and we have made an appoio formalize my wishes in a will just in case. And that ought to be the end of it.

    But I don’t feel I am quite done. I don’t know who or hoeople will eventually read this, but no matter how few they are, no matter how distant in time from this moment, I feel a responsibility toward them. And although I have told them all there is to know about Adeline and Emmeline and the ghost-child, I realize that for some that will not be quite enough. I know what it is like to finish a book and find oneself w, a day or a week later, what happeo the butcher or who got the diamonds, or whether or not the dowager was ever reciled with her niece. I  imagine readers p what became of Judith and Maurice, whether anyo up the glorious garden, who came to live in the house.

    And so, in case you are w, let me tell you. Judith and Maurice stayed on. The house was not sold; provision had been made in Miss Winter’s will for the house and garden to be verted into a kind of literary museum. Of course it is the garden that has real value (“an unsuspected gem,” an early horticultural review has called it), but Miss Winter realized that it was her reputation for storytelling more than her gardening skill that would draw the crowds. And so there are to be tours of the rooms, a teashop, and a bookshop. Coaches that bring tourists to the Bronte museum  e afterward to “Vida Winter’s Secret Garden.” Judith will tinue as housekeeper, and Maurice as head gardeheir first job, before the version  begin, is to clear Emmeline’s rooms. These will not be visited, for there will be nothing to see.

    Aer. Now, this will surprise you; it certainly surprised me. I had a letter from Emmanuel Drake. To tell you the truth, I’d fotten all about him. Slowly ahodically he tinued his searches, and against all odds, late in the day, he found her. “It was the Italian e that threw me off track,” his letter explained, “when yoverness had gohe other way eo America!” For three years Hester had worked as clerical assistant to an academieurologist, and wheime , guess who came to join her? Dr. Maudsley! His wife died (nothing more sihan the flu, I did check), and within days of the funeral he was on the boat. It was love. They are both deceased now, but after a long and happy life together. They had four children, one of whom has written to me, and I have sent the inal of his mother’s diary to him to keep. I doubt he will be able to make out much more than one word in ten; if he asks me for elucidation, I will tell him that his mother knew his father here in England, during the time of his father’s first marriage, but if he does not ask, I will keep my silence. In his letter to me, he enclosed a list of his parents’ joint publications. They researched and wrote dozens of highly regarded articles (none on twins, I think they knew when to call it a day) and published them jointly: Dr. E. and Mrs. H. J. Maudsley.

    H. J.? Hester had a middle name: Josephine.

    What else will you want to know? Who looked after the cat? Well, Shadow came to live with me at the bookshop. He sits on the shelves, anywhere he  find a space between the books, and when ers e across him there, he returns their stares with placid equanimity. From time to time he will sit in the window, but not for long. He is baffled by the street, the vehicles, the passersby, the buildings opposite. I have shown him the shortcut via the alley to the river, but he ss to use it.

    ‘What do you expect?“ my father says. ”A river is no use to a Yorkshire cat. It is the moors he is looking for.“

    I think he is right. Full of expectation, Shadow jumps up to the window, looks out, then turns on me a long, disappoiare.

    I don’t like to think that he is homesick.

    Dr. Clifton came to my father’s shop—he happeo be visiting the town, he said, and remembering that my father had a bookshop here, he thought it worthwhile to call in, though it was something of a long shot, to see if we had a particular volume oeenth-tury medie he was ied in. As it happened, we did have one, and he and my father chatted amiably about it at length, until well after closing time. To make up for keeping us so late he invited us out for a meal. It was very pleasant, and since he was still in town for anht, my father invited him the  evening for a meal with the family. I my mother told me he was “a very nice man, Margaret. Very he  afternoon was his last. We went for a walk by the river, but this time it was just the two of us, Father being too busy writiers to be able to apany us. I told him the story of the ghost of Angelfield. He listened closely, and when I had finished, we tio walk, slowly and in silence.

    ‘I remember seeing that treasure box,“ he said eventually. ”How did it e to escape the fire?“

    I stopped in my tracks, w. “You know, I hought to ask.”

    ‘You’ll never knoill you?“

    He took my arm and we walked on.

    Anyway, returning to my subject, which is Shadow and his homesiess, when Dr. Clifton visited my father’s shop and saw the cat’s sadness he proposed to give Shadow a home with him. Shadow would be very happy ba Yorkshire, I have no doubt. But this offer, kind as it is, has plunged me into a state of painful perplexity. For I am not sure I  bear to be parted from him. He, I am sure, would bear my abseh the same posure with which he accepts Miss Winter’s disappearance, for he is a cat; but being human, I have grown fond of him and would prefer if at all possible to keep him near me.

    In a letter I betrayed something of these thoughts to Dr. Clifton; he replies that perhaps we might both go and stay, Shadow and I, for a holiday. He invites us for a month, in the spring. Anything, he says, may happen in a month, and by the end of it he thinks it possible that we may have thought of some way out of the dilemma that suits us all. I ot help but think Shadow will get his happy endi.

    And that is all.

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