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"No, no -- I dont think that would be appropriate." Mister Bilderbach had said when the Bloch was suggested to end the programme. "Now that John Powell thing -- the Sonate Virginianesque."She hadnt uood then; she wa to be the Bloch as much as Mister Lafkowitz and Heime.
Mister Bilderbach had given in. Later, after the reviews had said she lacked the temperament for that type of music, after they called her playing thin and lag in feeling, she felt cheated.
"That oie oie stuff," said Mister Bilderbach, crag the neers at her. "Not for you, Bien. Leave all that to the Heimes and vitses and skys."
A Wunderkind. No matter what the papers said, that was what he had called her.
Why was it Heime had done so much better at the cert tha school sometimes, when she was supposed to be watg someone do a geometry problem on the blackboard, the question would twist knife-like inside her. She would worry about it in bed, and even sometimes when she was supposed to be trating at the piano. It wasnt just the Blod her not being Jewish -- irely. It wasnt that Heime didnt have to go to school and had begun his training so early, either. It was --?
Once she thought she knew.
"Play the Fantasia and Fugue," Mister Bilderbach had demanded one evening a year ago -- after he and Mister Lafkowitz had finished reading some music together.
The Bach, as she played, seemed to her well done. From the tail of her eye she could see the calm, pleased expression on Mister Bilderbachs face, see his hands rise climactically from the chair arms and then sink down loose and satisfied when the high points of the phrases had been passed successfully. She stood up from the piano when it was over, swallowing to loosen the bands that the music seemed to have drawn arouhroat and chest. But --
"Frances --" Mister Lafkowitz had said then, suddenly, looking at her with his thin mouth curved and his eyes almost covered by their delicate lids. "Do you know how many children Bach had?"
She turo him, puzzled. "A good many. Twenty some odd."
"Well then --" The ers of his smile etched themselves gently in his pale face. "He could not have been so cold -- then."
Mister Bilderbach was not pleased; his guttural effulgence of German words had Kind in it somewhere. Mister Lafkowitz raised his eyebrows. She had caught the point easily enough, but she felt ion in keeping her face blank and immature because that was the way Mister Bilderbach wanted her to look.
Yet such things had nothing to do with it. Nothing very much, at least, for she would grow older. Mister Bilderbaderstood that, and even Mister Lafkowitz had not meant just what he said.
In the dreams Mister Bilderbachs faed out and tracted in the ter of the whirling circle. The lips urging softly, the veins in his temples insisting.
But sometimes, before she slept, there were such clear memories; as when she pulled a hole in the heel of her stog down, so that her shoe would hide it. "Bien, Bien!" And bringing Mrs. Bilderbachs work basket in and showing her how it should be darned and not gathered together in a lumpy heap.
And the time she graduated from Junih.
"What you wear?" asked Mrs. Bilderbach the Sunday m at breakfast wheold them about how they had practiced to marto the auditorium.
"An evening dress my cousin had last year."
"Ah -- Bien!" he said, cirg his warm coffee cup with his heavy hands, looking up at her with wrinkles around his laughing eyes. "I bet I know what Bien wants --"
He insisted. He would not believe her when she explai<big>藏书网</big>hat she holy didnt care at all.
"Like this, Anna," he said, pushing his napkin across the table and ming to the other side of the room, swishing his hips, rolling up his eyes behind his horn-rimmed glasses.
The Saturday afternoon, after her lessons, he took her to the department stores downtown. His thick fingers smoothed over the filmy s and crag taffetas that the saleswomen unwound from their bolts. He held colors to her face, cog his head to one side, aed pink. Shoes, he remembered too. He liked best some white kid pumps. They seemed a little like old ladies shoes to her and the Red Cross label in the instep had a charity look. But it really didnt matter at all. When Mrs. Bilderbach began to cut out the dress and fit it to her with pins, he interrupted his lessons to stand by and suggest ruffles around the hips and ned a fancy rosette on the shoulder. The music was ing along hen. Dresses and e and such made no difference.
Nothing mattered much except playing the music as it must be played, bringing out the thing that must be in her, practig, practig, playing so that Mister Bilderbachs face lost some of its urging look. Putting the thing into her music that Myra Hess had, and Yehudi Menuhin -- even Heime!
What had begun to happen to her four months ago? The notes began springing out with a glib, dead intonation. Adolesce, she thought. Some kids played with promise -- and worked and worked until, like her, the least little thing would start them g, and worn out with trying to get the thing across -- the longing thing they felt -- something queer began to happen -- But not she! She was like Heime. She had to be. She --
O was there for sure. And you didnt lose things like that. A Wunderkind. . . A Wunderkind. . . Of her he said it, rolling the words in the sure, deep German way. And in the dreams even deeper, more certain than ever. With his faing out at her, and the longing phrases of music mixed in with the zooming, cirg round, round, round -- A Wunderkind. A Wunderkind. . . This afternoon Mister Bilderbach did not show Mister Lafkowitz to the front door, as he usually did. He stayed at the piano, softly pressing a solitary note. Listening, Frances watches the violinist wind his scarf about his pale throat.
"A good picture of Heime," she said, pig up her music. "I got a letter from him a couple of months ago -- telling about hearing Sabel and Huberman and about egie Hall and things to eat at the Russian Tea Room."
To put off going into the studio a moment longer she waited until Mister Lafkowitz was ready to leave and then stood behind him as he opehe door. The frosty cold outside cut into the room. It was growing late and the air was seeped with the pale yellow of wiwilight. When the door swung to on its hihe house seemed darker and more silent than ever before she had known it to be.
As she went into the studio Mister Bilderbach got up from the piano and silently watched her settle herself at the keyboard.
"Well, Bien," he said, "this afternoon we are going to begin all over. Start from scratch. Fet the last few months."
He looked as though he were trying to act a part in a movie. His solid body swayed from toe to heel, he rubbed his hands together, and even smiled in a satisfied, movie way. Then suddenly he thrust this manner brusquely aside. His heavy shoulder<var></var>s slouched and he began to run through the stausic she had brought in. "The Bach -- no, not yet," he murmured. "The Beethovehe Variation Sonata. Opus. 26."
The keys of the piano hemmed her in -- stiff and white and dead-seeming.
"Wait a minute," he said. He stood in the curve of the piano, elbows propped, and looked at her. "Today I expeething from you. Now this sonata -- its the first Beethoven sonata you ever worked on. Every note is under trol -- teically -- you have nothing to cope with but the musily musiow. Thats all you think about."
He rustled through the pages of her volume until he found the place. Then he pulled his teag chair halfway across the room, tur around aed himself, straddling the back with his legs.
For some reason, she khis position of his usually had a good effe her performance. But today she felt that she would notice him from the er of her eye and be disturbed. His back was stiffly tilted, his legs looked tehe heavy volume before him seemed to balance dangerously on the chair back. "Now we begin," he said with a peremptory dart of his eyes in her dire.
Her hands rounded over the keys and then sank down. The first notes were too loud, the other phrases followed dryly.
Arrestingly his hand rose up from the score. "Wait! Think a minute what youre playing. How is this beginning marked?"
"An-andante."
"All right. Dont drag it into an adagio then. And play deeply into the keys. Dont snatch it off shallowly that way. A graceful, deep-toned andante --"
She tried again. Her hands seemed separate from the music that was in her.
"Listen," he interrupted. "Which of these variations domihe whole?"
"The dirge," she answered.
"Then prepare for that. This is an andante -- but its not salon stuff as you just played it. Start out softly, piano, and make it swell out just before the arpeggio. Make it warm and dramatid down here -- where its marked dolce make the ter melody sing out. You know all that. Weve gone over all that side of it before. Now play it. Feel it as Beethoven wrote it dowhat tragedy araint."
She could not stop looking at his hands. They seemed to rest tentatively on the music, ready to fly up as a stop signal as soon as she would begin, the gleaming flash of his ring callio halt. "Mister Bilderbach -- maybe if I -- if you let me play on through the first variation without stopping I could do better."
"I wont interrupt," he said.
Her pale face leaned over too close to the keys. She played through the first part, and, obeying a nod from him, began the sed. There were no flaws that jarred on her, but the phrases shaped from her fingers before she had put into them the meaning that she felt.
When she had finished he looked up from the musid began to speak with dull bluntness: "I hardly heard those harmonic fillings in the right hand. And ially, this part was supposed to take on iy, develop the foreshadowings that were supposed to be i in the first part. Go on with the ohough."
She wao start it with subdued viciousness and progress to a feeling of deep, swollen sorrow. Her mind told her that. But her hands seemed to gum in the keys like limp mai and she could not imagihe music as it should be.
When the last note had stopped vibrating, he closed the book and deliberately got up from the chair. He was moving his lower jaw from side to side -- aween his open lips she could glimpse the pihy lao his throat and his strong, smoke-yellowed teeth. He laid the Beethoven gingerly on top of the rest of her musid propped his elbows on the smooth, black piano top once more. "No," he said simply, looking at her.
Her mout99ｌｉｂ?h began to quiver. "I t help it. I --"
Suddenly he strained his lips into a smile. "Listen, Bien," he began in a new, forced voice. "You still play the Harmonious Blacksmith, dont you? I told you not to drop it from your repertoire."
"Yes," she said. "I practice it now and then."
His voice was the one he used for children. "It was among the first things we worked on together -- remember. Sly you used to play it -- like a real blacksmiths daughter. You see, Bien, I know you so well -- as if you were my own girl. I know what you have -- Ive heard you play so many things beautifully. You used to --"
He stopped in fusion and inhaled from his pulpy stub of cigarette. The smoke drowsed out from his pink lips and g in a gray mist around her lank hair and childish forehead.
"Make it happy and simple," he said, switg on the lamp behind her and stepping back from the piano.
For a momeood just ihe bright circle the light made. Then impulsively he squatted down to the floor. "Vigorous," he said.
She could not stop looking at him, sitting on one heel with the other foot resting squarely before him for balahe muscles of his strong thighs straining uhe cloth of his trousers, his back straight, his elbows staunchly propped on his knees. "Simply now," he repeated with a gesture of his fleshy hands. "Think of the blacksmith -- w out in the sunshine all day. W easily and undisturbed."
She could not lo.ok down at the piano. The light brightehe hairs on the backs of his outspread hands, made the lenses of his glasses glitter.
"All of it," he urged. "Now!"
She felt that the marrows of her bones were hollow and there was no blood left in her. Her heart that had been springing against her chest all afternoo suddenly dead. She saw it gray and limp and shriveled at the edges like an oyster.
His face seemed to throb out in space before her, e closer with the lurg motion in the veins of his temples. Ireat, she looked down at the piano. Her lips shook like jelly and a surge of noiseless tears made the white keys blur in a watery line. "I t," she whispered. "I dont know why, but I just t -- t any more."
His tense body slaed and, holding his hand to his side, he pulled himself up. She clutched her musid hurried past him.
Her coat. The mittens and galoshes. The schoolbooks and the satchel he had given her on her birthday. All from the silent room that was hers. Quickly -- before he would have to speak.
As she passed through the vestibule she could not help but see his hands -- held out from<dfn></dfn> his body that leaned against the studio door, relaxed and purposeless. The door shut to firmly. Dragging her books and satchel she stumbled dowoeps, turned in the wrong dire, and hurried dowreet that had bee fused with noise and bicycles and the games of other children.
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