百度搜索 Unspeakable Practices, Unnatural Acts 天涯 或 Unspeakable Practices, Unnatural Acts 天涯在线书库 即可找到本书最新章节.
SHOTWELL KEEPS THE JACKS and the rubber ball in his attache case and will not allow me to play with them. He plays with them, alone, sitting on the floor he sole hour after hour, t?ing "owosies, threesies, foursies" in a pre?cise, well-modulated voiot so loud as to be annoying, not so soft as to allow me tet. I point out to Shotwell that two derive more enjoyment from playing jacks than one, but he is not ied. I have asked repeatedly to be al?lowed to play by myself, but he simply shakes his head. "Why?" I ask. "Theyre mine," he says. And when he has finished, when he has sated himself, back they go into the attache case.It is unfair but there is nothing I do about it. I am ag to get my hands on them.
Shotwell and I watch the sole. Shotwell and I live uhe ground and watch the sole. If certais take place upon the sole, we are to i our keys in the appropriate locks and turn our keys. Shotwell has a key <samp></samp>and I have a key. If we turn our keys simultaneously the bird flies, cer?tain switches are activated and the bird flies. But the bird never flies. In one huhirty-three days the bird has not flown. Meanwhile Shotwell and I watch each other. We each wear a .45 and if Shotwell behaves strangely I am supposed to shoot him. If I behave strangely Shotwell is supposed to shoot me. We watch the sole and think about shooting each other and think about the bird. Shotwells behavior with the jacks is strange. Is it strange? I do not know. Perhaps he is merely a selfish bastard, perhaps his character is flawed, per?haps his childhood was twisted. I do not know.
Each of us wears a .45 and each of us is sup?posed to shoot the other if the other is behaving strangely. How strangely is strangely? I do not know. In addition to the .45 I have a .38 which Shotwell does not know about cealed in my attache case, and Shotwell has a .25 calibre Beretta which I do not know about strapped to his right calf. Sometimes instead of watg the sole I pointedly wa9９liｂ?ch Shotwells .45, but this is simply a ruse, simply a maneuver, iy I am watg his hand when it dangles in the viity of his right calf. If he decides I am behaving strangely he will shoot me not with the .45 but with the Beretta. Similarly Shotwell pretends to watch my .45 but he is really watg my haing idly atop my attache case, my haing idly atop my attache case, my hand. My haing idly atop my attache case.
In the beginning I took care to behave normally. So did Shotwell. Our behavior ainfully nor?mal. Norms of politeness, sideration, speech, and personal habits were scrupulously observed. But then it became apparent that an error had been made, that out relief was not going to arrive. Ow?ing to an ht. Owing to an ht we have been here for one huhirty-three days. When it became clear that an error had been made, that we were not to be relieved, the norms were relaxed. Definitions of normality were redrawn in the agree?ment of January 1, called by us, The Agreement. Unifulations were relaxed, aimes are no lorously scheduled. We eat when we are hungry and sleep when we are tired. ?siderations of rank and prece were tempo?rarily put aside, a handsome cession on the part of Shotwell, who is a captain, whereas I am only a first lieutenant. One of us watches the sole at all times rather than two of us watg the ?sole at all times, except when we are both on our feet. One of us watches the sole at all times and if the bird flies then that one wakes the other aurn our keys in the locks simultaneously and the bird flies. Our system involves a delay of per?haps twelve seds but I do not care because I am not well, and Shotwell does not care because he is not himself. After the agreement was signed Shotwell produced the jacks and the rubber ball from his attache case, and I began to write a series of descriptions of forms in nature, such as a shell, a leaf, a stone, an animal. On the walls.
Shotwell plays jacks and I write descriptions of natural forms on the walls.
Shotwell is enrolled in a USAFI course which leads to a masters degree in business administra?tion from the Uy of Wissin (although we are not in Wissin, we are in Utah, Montana or Idaho). When we went down it was iher Utah, Montana or Idaho, I dont remember. We have been here for one huhirty-three days owing to an ht. The pale green reinforced crete walls sweat and the air ditioning zips on and off erratically and Shotwell reads Introduc?tion to Marketing by Lassiter and Munk, making notes with a blue ballpoint pen. Shotwell is not himself but I do not know it, he presents a calm asped reads Introdu to Marketing and makes his exemplary notes with a blue ballpoint pen, meanwhile trolling the .38 in my attache case with ohird of his attention. I am not well.
We have been here one huhirty-three days owing to an ht. Although now we are not sure what is ht, what is plan. Perhaps the plan is for us to stay here permaly, or if not permaly at least for a year, for three hun?dred sixty-five days. Or if not for a year for some number of days known to them and not known to us, such as two hundred days. Or perhaps they are our behavior in some way, sensors of some kind, perhaps our behavior determihe number of days. It may be that they are pleased with us, with our behavior, not in every detail but in sum. Perhaps the whole thing is very successful, perhaps the whole thing is an experiment and the experiment is very successful. I do not know. But I suspect that the only way they persuade sun-loving creatures into their pale greeing re?inforced crete rooms uhe ground is to say that the system is twelve hours on, twelve hours off. And then lock us below for some number of days known to them and not known to us. We eat well although the frozen enchiladas are damp when defrosted and the frozen devils food cake is sour and untasty. We sleep uneasily and acrimo?niously. I hear Shotwell shouting in his sleep, ob?jeg, denoung, cursing sometimes, weeping sometimes, in his sleep. When Shotwell sleeps I try to pick the lo his attache case, so as to get at the jacks. Thus far I have been unsuccessful. Nor has Shotwell been successful in pig the loy attache case so as to get at the .38. I have seen the marks on the shiny surface. I laughed, irine, pale green walls sweating and the air ditioning whispering, irine.
I write descriptions of natural forms on the walls, scratg them oile surface with a diamond. The diamond is a two and one-half carat solitaire I had in my attache case when we went down. It was for Lucy. The south wall of the room tain?ing the sole is already covered. I have de?scribed a shell, a leaf, a stone, animals, a baseball bat. I am aware that the baseball bat is not a natural form. Yet I described it. "The baseball bat," I said, "is typically made of wood. It is typically oer ih or a little longer, fat at one end, tapering to afford a fortable grip at the other. The end with the handhold typically offers a slight rim, or lip, at the her extremity, to prevent slip?page." My description of the baseball bat ran to 4500 words, all scratched with a diamond on the south wall. Does Shotwell read what I have writ?ten? I do not know. I am aware that Shotwell re?gards my writing-behavior as a little strange. Yet it is ner than his jacks-behavior, or the day he appeared in black bathing trunks with the .25 calibre Beretta strapped to his right calf and stood over the sole, trying to span with his two arms outstretched the distaween the locks. He could not do it, I had already tried, standing over the sole with my two arms outstretched, the distance is too great. I was moved to ent but did not ent, ent would have provoked ter-<tt>?t>ent, ent would have led God knows where. They had in their infiience, in their infinite fht, in their infinite wisdom already imagined a man standing over the sole with his two arms outstretched, trying to span with his two arms outstretched the distaween the locks.
Shotwell is not himself. He has made certaiures. The burden of his message is not clear. It has something to do with the keys, with the locks. Shotwell is a strange person. He appears to be less affected by our situation than I. He goes about his business stolidly, watg the sole, studying Introdu to Marketing, boung his rubber ball on the floor in a steady, rhythmical, stious manner. He appears to be less af?fected by our situation than I am. He is stolid. He says nothing. But he has made certaiures, certaiures have been made. I am not sure that I uand them. They have something to do with the keys, with the locks. Shotwell has some?thing in mind. Stolidly he shucks the shiny silver paper from the frozen enchiladas, stolidly he stuffs them into the electric oven. But he has something in mind. But there must be a quid pro quo. I insist on a quid pro quo. I have something in mind.
I am not well. I do not know our target. They do not tell us for which city the bird is targeted. I do not know. That is planning. That is not my respon?sibility. My responsibility is to watch the sole and wheais take place upon the ?sole, turn my key in the lock. Shotwell bouhe rubber ball on the floor in a steady, stolid, rhythmi?cal manner. I am ag to get my hands on the ball, on the jacks. We have been here one huhirty-three days owing to an ht. I write on the walls. Shotwell ts "owo-sies, threesies, foursies" in a precise, well-modu?lated voiow he cups the jacks and the rubber ball in his hands and rattles them suggestively. I do not know for which city the bird is targeted. Shotwell is not himself.
Sometimes I ot sleep. Sometimes Shotwell ot sleep. Sometimes when Shotwell cradles me in his arms and rocks me to sleep, singing Brahms "Guten abend, gute Nacht," or I cradle Shotwell in my arms and rock him to sleep, singing, I uand what it is Shotwell wishes me to do. At suents we are very close. But only if he will give me the jacks. That is fair. There is some?thing he wants me to do with my key, while he does something with his key. But only if he will give me my turn. That is fair. I am not well.
百度搜索 Unspeakable Practices, Unnatural Acts 天涯 或 Unspeakable Practices, Unnatural Acts 天涯在线书库 即可找到本书最新章节.