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"AHA!" Simon says."Not too bad," says Veronica.
"Ill have another," Ralph says. He puts a ten on the bar.
"Me too," says Veronica.
"Ill go along," Simon says.
"You two getting it on, or what?" Ralph asks.
"Just acquaintances," Veronica says. "Mere ac?quaintances."
"Dont look like mere acquaintao me," Ralph says. "I have a feel for that sort of thing. Theres a eople look. They kind of lean toward each other."
"This music is a little muddy," Simon says. The jukebox is playing a Madonna number, "Into the Groove".
"You mean ceptually?" Veronica asks.
"I mean the sound."
"I dont care," Ralph says. "If you twetting it on. Im just an old friend. If you twetting it on, Im happy for you. This kid is not my type, actually. I love her, but shes not my type. We spent the night to?gether once, and it was a damp, damp evening. Many, many tears. You remember?"
"Dont remind me. I remember."
"The Brown Palace," Ralph says. "Denvers fi."
"You were trying very hard," Veronica says.
"I always try very hard. One of the hings about me. But you just sat there a, all night long. First I said to myself, Ralph, what is this? Is this a tactic? Is this a maneuver? If its a tactic, whats the objective? I couldnt see an objective. So I decided it was grief, real grief."
"It was grief."
"So I said to myself, how am I to deal with this real, genuine grief? Room service? Booze? What?"
"Booze we already had."
"Stuff a cold, starve a fever," Ralph says. "I decided this was more in the cold area. We had their twenty-two doll<big></big>ar prime rib, if you remember."
"I had just busted up with Jack."
"So were sitting there tearing up this twenty-two-dollar prime rib in the Brown Palace at four oclo the m and she tells me I have a relentlessly pedestrian mind. Remember that?"
"I guess I was in a bad mood or something."
"I was not unaware of that," Ralph says. "he?less it hurt me, at the time. Now I laugh about it."
"I robably too drunk to be as sensitive as I am when Im not drunk," she says.
"You were pretty unhappy. You were probably thinking, what am I doing in this hotel room with this bozo?"
"I hought of you that way. I always thought of you as kind of a friend."
"I just bought a new Mazda, gold in color," Ralph says. "People who are referred to as kind of a frieo buy cars that are gold in color."
"Now youre feeling sorry for yourself," Veronica says. "Stop it."
"Back to Denver," Ralph says. "Denver and my gold Mazda."
"This rounds on me," Simon says. "The same again? Everybody?"
IN the first dream he was grabbed by three or four cops for firing a e-plated .45 randomly ireet. He had no idea where he had gotten the .45 or why it was e-plated. In the sed dream he awoke sitting on a lounge in a hotel lobby wearing pants and shoes but bare-chested. "Ive got to find a shirt," he thought. Then he was in an apartment, which he reized, trying to find a shirt. People were sleeping in the apartment and he kept banging into cymbals on stands placed here and there. He couldnt find a shirt. His mother came out of a clos<df</df and asked him to be a little quieter.
A sober versation with Anne. "Tim asked Dore to e to work for Medlapse," she says. "Hell make her a vice-president. To begin with, though, shell have to be the secretary."
"Its got crash-and-burn written all over it."
"Shell be a vice-president."
"Like being vice-president of a bag of pop."
"I know," Anne says, sighing. "God I hate being a secretary. I did it for three years in Dehese ass?holes telling you what to do."
"If you could do whatever you wanted --"
"Id like to be an indepe oil operator. There were a lot of those at home. Real party guys. Great hearts."
"Well," Simon says, "thats a skill too. You have to know how to banks."
"I had oer of geology."
"Maybe law school?"
"Terrible."
"You dont know that for a fact."
"Im a total failure."
"Begin."
When the women began to get angry, Simon had not known quite how to react. They surprised him. He had, after all, dotle more than give them a place to stay, feed them, sleep with them and talk to them, extending good Christian fellowship. But they had to be mad at somebody, he uood that, and even if they were mad at themselves still that was only starting the en?gine, as it were, the vehicle still had to go somewhere, win a race, explode, even. Veronica had e in one day with a headline from the National Enquirer,
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and said, "What you do, Simon?"
Some days they were angry with him, some days they were angry with each other. Four people, many possibili?ties. Each person could be angry at any given point with owo, or three others, ry at the self. Two people could be angry at a third, three people at a fourth. He reached forty-nine possibilities before his math expired.
Their movement through the world required young men, a class to which he did not belong. Simon liked young men, within reasonable limits, and approved, in general, of the idea of young men and young women sleeping together in joyous disregard of history, eics, building codes. Let them have their four hun?dred square feet. Veronica liked garage apartments. Perhaps the young men would do well in the world, at?tend the new branch of Harvard Business in Gainesville, market a black bean soup that would rage through Miami like rabies or a voice attenuator capable of turn?ing crackers into lisping Brits, and end up with seven thousand square feet in Paris on the Ile de la Cité. Young men had stiff pricks and smelled good, by and large, almost as good as babies. Young women bounced up and down on your chest and dazzled you with a thousand ued attacks. Simon ted the ways in which he was God-visited.
Sarah calls. "Do you know what shes done?" she asks. Shes referring to her mother.
"What?"
"Fallen in love."
Simon is astonished. "With whom?"
"The mayor. And hes married."
"Good God thats terrible."
"She was g on my shoulder all last night."
"Oh Lord. I do anything?"
"Talk to her?"
"Would she want to talk to me about this?"
"I guess not. She said you were what she was trying to get away from."
"I uand that. I uood that a long time ago."
"Doter."
"Simple statement of fact. People get too much of each other. Civility goes away, finally."
"Yeah I think youd better butt out. Not that youve had so much to do with the affairs of your Philadelphia group lately."
"Well. Do you have enough money?"
"Daddy youve been askihat since I was thir?teen."
"Its a reflex. Listen, Sarah, is there anything I do for her, do you think? Or would it be better if I didnt know about it?"
"I think she wants you to know about it. Theres nothing you do about it."
"Is he in love with her?"
"Hes a mayor. He needs a lot of love. More than other people. Os."
How does she know so much? "Keep me posted," he says.
"I dropped Ways of Being, the East."
"Why?"
"It was b and the guy lectured into his tie, mostly."
Veronicas trampoline is leaning against the wall and Veronica is throwing books at it to see how far they will bounce. Buddenbrooks in a paper edi?tion bounces a good twelve feet. Dore is painting her legs red, with a two-inch brush and a big jar into which she has crumbled bright red Easter-egg glazes. Anne is threatening to cut off her long hair. She stands poised, a hank in one hand, scissors iher, daring ao interfere. "Anybody messes with me gets the scissors in the medulla." Simon senses u.
A terrible night. Simon is in bed by ten, taking a Scotch for pany. Anne and Dore are now watg television. Veronica is out somewhere. About ten-thirty Anne es into the room, strips, as into bed with him.
"Im chilly," she says.
He turns her oomad begins to stroke her back, gently. A very sculptural waist, narrowing sud?denly uhe rib cage and then the hipbones flaring.
When Anne leaves to go back to her own bed, at two, Dore appears in the doorway.
"Are you all tired?" she asks.
"Probably." Dore climbs into the bed, clumsily, peels off her jeans and bikini pants, retaining the tank top which shes cut raggedly around the ne the style of the moment. She takes his co hand and re?gards it thoughtfully.
"Im sad and depressed," she says. "I feel useless. All I do is sit around and watch MTV."
"What do you want to do?"
"Something. But I dont know what."
"Lot of people in the same position," Simon says.
"I dont want to be a lawyer and I dont want to be a wife. I dont want to be a musi. What does that leave?"
"Be bad. Imagine something bad."
"Like what?"
"I have to tell you what to imagine?"
She looks at him. "There was this guy once. He asked me, are you a swallower or a spitter?"
"Whatd you say?"
"He was a doctor. They tend to be crude."
He struggles around the bed and begins to kiss the insides of her thighs. "This is a terrible night."
"Why?"
"You guys arent solving your problems. I t help you very much." His hands are splayed out over her back, moving up and down, over the shoulders and down to the splendid buttocks. Thinking of buttercups and butterflies and flying buttresses and butts of malm?sey.
"Veronica has a rash," she says, ing up for air.
"What kind of a rash?"
"Dark red. Looks like a wiain."
"Where is it?"
"Youll see."
Saliva is running down his cock, token of enthusi?asm.
Veronica walks in. "What is taking place here?" she asks, in a voice like thunder.
AFTER the women had departed Simo up a small offi a barely renovated building o Broadway. He was on the fourth floor, there was no air ditioning, and the big open windows brought in the clamor of the street, sirens, rape, e. His partners in Philadelphia sent him small jobs, much as one might UPS a fruitcake or a brace of pheasant to one rec from an illness, with the implication that they were to be enjoyed not now but later, when he was stronger. He sat at his draughting table, a hollow-core door resting on carpenters sawhorses, sketg on trag paper with a felt pen. The problem was an of?fice for a small foundation which had leased spa a very good blo the East Sevehe difficulty was that although there were floor-to-ceiling windows fag the street in the existing building, very little light reached the her regions. He had designed a light scoop to be affixed to the rear of the building, but fig?ured that the cost would be prohibitive. The fire escape laced precisely where the tubing for the light scoop would have to go, and light scoops dont work very well anyhow, as both the tygers of wrath and the horses of instru had taught him. Blake also had something to say about foundations:
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But thats a little hard, he thought, these people are doing the best they , piloting worthy projects through the ss of Inanition. To be w agai very good.
SIMON thinks about Paradise. On the great throne, a naked young woman, her back to the viewer. Simon looks around for Onan, >藏书网</a>doesnt see him. Onan didnt make it to Paradise? Seems unfair. Great deal of marble about, he notices, shades of rose and terra-cotta; Paradise seems to have been designed by Edward Durell Stone. Sce had worked out a way to cremate human remains, reduce the ashes to the size of a bouil?lon cube, and fire the produto spa a rocket, solving the Forest Lawn dilemma. Simon had once done a sketch problem on tomb sculpture, for his soph?omore Visual Awareness course. No more tomb sculp?ture.
Paradise unearned. It was, rather, a gift, in this way theologically unsound. It was a state or dition vis?ited upon him, like being in the Army. Simon had walked around in green fatigues for most of two years, doing the best he could from day to day, sometimes carrying drunken rades back to the barracks at night, outside Stuttgart, in a firemans lift. His days were spent in meaningless maneuvers with giant ?ons which the Army was afraid to fire for fear they wouldnt work. Mostly, wheed, they didnt. Simon read Stars & Stripes and very goobbr></abbr>d mystery novels by John D. Maald. On leave in Berliried to find buildings by Karl Friedrich Skel, whose work had not been lost ohe women would soon be gohe best thing he could do was to listen to them.
"Ive had twenty-six years practi standing up. I do it," Anne says.
Shes wearing sants with a dark gray eck sweater and medium-gray Reeboks. Shes been drinking tequila and shes terribly drunk.
"I want to tell you something."
"What?"
"You think were dumb bunnies."
"What makes you think that?"
"Your attitude."
Simons been reading Audubon A, "Arizona Dam Project Faew Challenge."
"Whats my attitude?"
"I see fatigue and disgust."
"Sweetie, thats not true."
"Dont call me sweetie."
"Anne," he says, "you want to sit down?"
"You think were nht enough for you."
"Youre as bright as anybody. I mean it."
"You have an attitude of disdain. Sticks out all over you."
"Just not so."
"Veronica thinks you want us out."
"No. Untrue."
"She thinks your mind is wandering."
"Thats what my mind does. Wander. Right now Im thinking about the furniture of Paradise."
"What is it?"
"Knoll, basically." He pushes a sketch pad toward her. "But you see they havent allowed for the angels who have only one wing, so Im trying to --"
"The angels have only one wing?" she says in aston?ishment.
"Some angels have only one wing." He shows her an old engraving in which a single-winged angel is pic?tured.
"How they fly with only one wing?"
"What makes you think they fly? Ieral sense?"
"Ive always seen them with two wings."
"Artists like symmetry."
"He looks imperfect."
"You get a lot aplished with one wing. Fan the flames ahe orchestra. I saw Buddy Rich, the drummer, play with a broken arm one night. Did more with one hand and his two feet than --"
"But itd be like having only one breast." He slips a hand inside her shirt. Her breasts are bare. "If Id spent the same amount of time w about my mind as I have w about my chest, Id be Hegel by now," she says. "I mean sihirteen."
"Old Hegel."
"Dont be so snotty. We have Hegel in Denver."
"Hegel is quite sexy. Thesis, antithesis, synthesis."
"You think thats where he got the idea?"
"Could be."
Simon positions the white plaster egg eight feet tall iting room. The womeg. He smashes it with an iron-headed maul. Inside are three naked youheir names are Harry.
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