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MARTINI explain why I wao jump off the top of a tower-block? Of course I explain why I wao jump off the top of a tower-block. Im not a bloody idiot. I explain it because it wasnt inexplicable: it was a logical decision, the product of proper thought. It wasnt even a very serious thought, either. I dont mean it was whimsical - I just meant that it wasnt terribly plicated, onized. Put it this way: say you were, I dont know, an assist<mark></mark>ant bank manager, in Guildford. And youd been thinking of emigrating, and then you were offered the job of managing a bank in Sydney. Well, even though its a pretty straightforward decision, youd still have to think for a bit, wouldnt you? Youd at least have to work out whether you could bear to move, whether you could leave your friends and colleagues behind, whether you could uproot your wife and kids. You might sit down with a bit of paper and draw up a list of pros and s. You know: S - aged parents, friends, golf club.
PROS - more money, better quality of life (house with pool, barbecue, etc.), sea, sunshine, -wing cils banning Baa-Baa Black Sheep, no EEC directives banning British sausages, etc.
Its no test, is it? The golf club! Give me a break. Obviously yed parents give you pause for thought, but thats all it is - a pause, and a brief ooo. Youd be on the phoo the travel agents within ten minutes.
Well, that was me. There simply werent enough regrets, and lots and lots of reasons to jump. The only things in my s list were the kids, but I couldnt imagine dy letting me see them again anyway. I havent got any aged parents, and I dont play golf. Suicide was my Sydney. And I say that with no offeo the good people of Sydney intended.
<strong>MAUREEN</strong>
I told him I was going to a New Years Eve party. I told him in October.
I dont know whether people send out invitations to New Years Eve parties in October or not. Probably not. (How would I know? I haveo one since . June and Brian across the road had one, just before they moved.
And even then I only nipped in for an hour or so, after hed goo sleep.) But I couldnt wait any longer. Id been thinking about it since May or June, and I was itg to tell him. Stupid, really. He doesnt uand, Im sure he doesnt. They tell me to keep talking to him, but you see that nothing goes in. And what a thing to be itg about anyway! It just goes to show what I had to look forward to, doesnt it?
The moment I told him, I wao ght to fession. Well, Id lied, hadnt I? Id lied to my own son. Oh, it was only a tiny, silly lie: Id told him months in advahat I was going to a party, a party Id made up.
Id made it up properly, too. I told him whose party it was, and why Id been invited, and why I wao go, and who else would be there. (It was Bridgids party, Bridgid from the church. And Id been invited because her sister was ing over from Cork, and her sister had asked after me in a couple of letters. And I wao go because Bridgids sister had taken her mother-in-law to Lourdes, and I wao find out all about it, with a view to taking Matty one day.) But fession wasnt possible, because I knew I would have to repeat the sin, the lie, over and over as the year came to an end. Not only to Matty, but to the people at the nursing home, and… Well, there isnt anyone else, really. Maybe someo the church, or someone in a shop. Its almost ical, when you think about it. If you spend day and night looking after a sick child, theres very little room for sin, and I hadnt done anything worth fessing for donkeys years. And I went from that, to sinning so terribly that I couldnt even talk to the priest, because I was going to go on sinning and sinning until the day I died, when I would it the biggest sin of all. (And why is it the biggest sin of all? All your life youre told that youll be going to this marvellous place when you pass on. And the ohing you do to get you there a bit quicker is something that stops you getting there at all. Oh, I see that its a kind of queue-jumping. But if someone jumps the queue at the Post Office, people tut. Or sometimes they say, Excuse me, I was here first. They dont say, You will be ed by hellfire for all eternity. That would be a bit strong.) It didnt stop me from going to the church. But I only kept going because people would think there was something wrong if I stopped.
As we got closer and closer to the date, I kept passing on little tidbits of information that I told him Id picked up. Every Sunday I pretended as though Id learned something new, because Sundays were when I saw Bridgid. Bridgid says therell be dang. Bridgids worried that not everyone likes wine and beer, so shell be providing spirits. Bridgid doesnt know hoeople will have eaten already. If Matty had been able to uand anything, hed have decided that this Bridgid woman was a lunatic, w like that about a little get-together. I blushed every time I saw her at the church. And of course I wao know what she actually was doing on New Years Eve, but I never asked. If she lanning to have a party, she mightve felt that she had to invite me.
Im ashamed, thinking baot about the lies - Im used to lying now.
No, Im ashamed of how pathetic it all was. One Sunday I found myself telling Matty about where Bridgid was going to buy the ham for the sandwiches. But it was on my mind, New Years Eve, of course it was, and it was a way of talking about it, without actually saying anything. And I suppose I came to believe in the party a little bit myself, in the way that you e to believe the story in a book. Every now and again I imagined what Id wear, how much Id drink, what time Id leave. Whether Id e home in a taxi. That sort of thing. In the end it was as if Id actually been. Even in my imagination, though, I couldnt see myself talking to a the party. I was always quite happy to leave it.
<strong>JESS</strong>
I was at a party downstairs in the squat. It was a shit party, full of all these a crusties sitting on the floor drinking cider and smoking huge spliffs and listening to weirdo space-ae. At midnight, one of them clapped sarcastically, and a couple of others laughed, and that was it - Happy New Year to you too. You could have turned up to that party as the happiest person in London, and youd still have wanted up to jump off the roof by five past twelve. And I wasnt the happiest person in London anyway. Obviously.
I only went because someo college told me Chas would be there, but he wasnt. I tried his mobile for the one zillionth time, but it wasnt on.
When we first split up, he called me a stalker, but thats like aive word, stalker, isnt it? I dont think you call it stalking when its just phone calls aers and emails and knog on the door. And I only turned up at his work twice. Three times, if you t his Christmas party, which I dont, because he said he was going to take me to that anyway.
Stalking is when you follow them to the shops and on holiday and all that, isnt it? Well, I never went near any shops. And anyway, I didnt think it was stalking when someone owed you an explanation. Being owed an explanation is like being owed money, and not just a fiver, either. Five or six hundred quid minimum, more like. If you were owed five or six hundred quid minimum and the person who owed it to you was avoiding you, then youre bound to kno his door late at night, when you know hes going to be in. People get serious about that sort of mohey call i collectors, and break peoples legs, but I never went that far. I showed some restraint.
So even though I could see straight away that he wasnt at this party, I stayed for a while. Where else was I going to go? I was feeling sorry for myself. How you be eighteen and not have ao go on New Years Eve, apart from some shit party in some shit squat where you dont know anybody? Well, I ma. I seem to ma every year. I make friends easily enough, but then I piss them off, I know that much,<q></q> even if Im not sure why or how. And so people and parties disappear.
I pissed Jen off, Im sure of that. She disappeared, like everyone else.
MARTIN Id spent the previous couple of months looking up suicide is oer, just out of curiosity. And nearly every siime, the er says the same thing: He took his own life while the balance of his mind was disturbed. And then you read the story about the poor bastard: his wife was sleeping with his best friend, hed lost his job, his daughter had been killed in a road act some months before… Hello, Mr er?
A home? Im sorry, but theres no disturbed mental balance here, my friend. Id say he got it just right. Bad thing upon bad thing upon bad thing until you t take any more, and then its off to the multi-storey car park in the family hatchback with a length of rubber tubing.
Surely thats fair enough? Surely the ers i should read, He took his own life after sober and careful plation of the fug shambles it had bee?
Not once did I read a neer report which vinced me that the deceased was off the old trolley. You know: The Maer United forward, who was eo the current Miss Sweden, had retly achieved a unique Double: he is the only mao have won the FA Cup and an Oscar for Best Actor in the same year. The rights to his first novel had just been bought for an undisclosed sum by Steven Spielberg. He was found hanging from a beam in his stables by a member of his staff. Now, Ive never seen a ers report like that, but if there were cases in which happy, successful, talented people took their own lives, one could safely e to the clusion that the old balance was indeed wonky. And Im not saying that being eo Miss Sweden, playing for Maer United and winning Oscars inoculates you against depression - Im sure it doesnt. Im just saying that these things help. Look at the statistics. Youre more likely to top yourself if youve just gohrough a divorce. Or if youre anorexic. Or if youre unemployed. Or if youre a prostitute. Or if youve fought in a war, or if youve been raped, or if youve lost somebody… There are lots and lots of factors that push people over the edge; none of these factors are likely to make you feel anything but fug miserable.
Two years ago Martin Sharp would not have found himself sitting on a tiny crete ledge in the middle of the night, looking a hundred feet down at a crete walkway and w whether hed hear the hat his bones made when they shattered into tiny pieces. But two years ago Martin Sharp was a different person. I still had my job. I still had a wife. I hadnt slept with a fifteen-year-old. I hado prison. I hadnt had to talk to my young daughters about a front-page tabloid neer article, an article headlined with the word SLEAZEBAG! and illustrated with a picture of me lying on the pavement outside a well-known London nightspot. (What would the headline have been if I had gone over? SLEAZY DOES IT! perhaps. Or maybe SHARP END!) There was, it is fair to say, less reason for ledge-sitting before all that happened. So dont tell me that the balany mind was disturbed, because it really didhat way. (What does it mean, anyway, that stuff about the balance of the mind? Is it strictly stific? Does the mind really wobble up and down in the head like some sort of fish-scale, acc to how loopy you are?) Wanting to kill myself propriate and reasonable respoo a whole series of unfortunate events that had rendered life unlivable. Oh, yes, I know the shrinks would say that they could have helped, but thats half the trouble with this bloody try, isnt it? No ones willing to face their responsibilities. Its always someone elses fault. Boo-hoo-hoo. Well, I happen to be one of those rare individuals who believe that what went on with Mummy and Daddy had nothing to do with me screwing a fifteen-year-old. I happen to believe that I would have slept with her regardless of whether Id bee-fed or not, and it was time to face up to what Id done.
And what Id done is, Id pissed my life away. Literally. Well, OK, not literally literally. I hadnt, you know, turned my life into urine and stored it in my bladder and so on and so forth. But I felt as if Id pissed my life away in the same way that you piss money away. Id had a life, full of kids and wives and jobs and all the usual stuff, and Id somehow mao mislay it. No, you see, thats nht. I knew where my life was, just as you know where money goes when you piss it away. I hadnt mislaid it at all. Id spent it. Id spent my kids and my job and my wife on teenage girls and nightclubs: these things all e at a price, and Id happily paid it, and suddenly my life wasnt there any more. What would I be leaving behind? On New Years Eve, it felt as though Id be saying goodbye to a dim form of sciousness and a semi-funing digestive system - all the indications of a life, certainly, but none of the tent. I didnt even feel sad, particularly. I just felt very stupid, and very angry.
Im not sitting here now because I suddenly saw sehe reason Im sitting here now is because that night turned into as much of a mess as everything else. I couldnt even jump off a fug tower-block without fug it up.
<strong>MAUREEN</strong>
On New Years Eve the nursing home sent their ambulance round for him. You had to pay extra for that, but I didnt mind. How could I? In the end, Matty was going to cost them a lot more than they were costing me. I was only paying for a night, and they were going to pay for the rest of his life.
I thought about hiding some of Mattys stuff, in case they thought it was odd, but no one had to know it was his. I could have had loads of kids, as far as they knew, so I left it there. They came around six, and these two young fellas wheeled him out. I couldnt cry when he went, because then the young fellas would know something was wrong; as far as they knew, I was ing to fetch him at eleven the m. I just kissed him oop of his head and told him to be good at the home, and I held it all in until Id seen them leave. Then I wept a, for about an hour. Hed ruined my life, but he was still my son, and I was never going to see him again, and I couldnt even say goodbye properly. I watched the television for a while, and I did have one or two glasses of sherry, because I k would be cold out.
I waited at the bus stop for ten minutes, but then I decided to walk.
Knowing that you want to die makes you less scared. I wouldnt have dreamed of walking all that way late at night, especially whereets are full of drunks, but what did it matter now? Although then, of course, I found myself w about being attacked but not murdered - left for dead without actually d..ying. Because then Id be taken to hospital, and theyd find out who I was, and theyd find out about Matty, and all those months of planning would have been a plete waste of time, and Id e out of hospital owing the home thousands of pounds, and where was I going to find that? But no oacked me. A couple of people wished me a Happy New Year, but that was about all. There isnt so much to be afraid of out there. I remember thinking it was a funny time to find that out, on the last night of my life; Id spent the rest of it being afraid of everything.
Id never been to Toppers House before. Id just been past it on the bus once or twice. I didnt even know for sure that you could get on to the roof any more, but the door en, and I just walked up the stairs until I couldnt walk any further. I dont know why it didnt occur to me that you couldnt just jump off whenever you felt like it, but the moment I saw it I realized that they would you do that. Theyd put this wire up, high, and there were curved railings with spikes oop… well, thats when I began to panic. Im not tall, and Im not very strong, and Im not as young as I was. I couldnt see how I was going to get over the top of it all, and it had to be that night, because of Matty being in the home and everything. And I started to gh all the other options, but none of them were any good. I didnt want to do it in my own front room, where someone I knew would find me. I wao be found by a stranger. And I didnt want to jump in front of a train, because Id seen a programme oelevision about the poor drivers and how suicides upset them. And I didnt have a car, so I couldnt drive off to a quiet spot and breathe in the exhaust fumes… And then I saw Martin, right over the other side of the roof. I hid in the shadows and watched him. I could see hed dohings properly: hed brought a little stepladder, and some wire-cutters, and hed mao climb over the top like that. And he was just sitting on the ledge, dangling his feet, looking down, taking nips out of a little hip flask, smoking, thinking, while I waited. And he smoked and he smoked and I waited and waited until in the end I couldnt wait any more. I know it was his stepladder, but I . It wasnt going to be much use to him.
I ried to push him. Im not beefy enough to push a grown man off a ledge. And I wouldnt have tried anyway. It wouldnt have been right; it to him whether he jumped or not. I just went up to him and put my hand through the wire and tapped him on the shoulder. I only wao ask him if he was going to be long.
<strong>JESS</strong>
Before I got to the squat, I never had any iion of going on to the roof. Holy. Id fotten about the whole Toppers House thing until I started speaking to this guy. I think he fancied me, which isnt really saying much, seeing as I was about the only female uhirty who could still stand up. He gave me a fag, aold me his name was Bong, and when I asked him why he was called Bong he said it was because he always smoked his weed out of a bong. And I went, Does that mean everyone else here is called Spliff ? But he was just, like, No, that bloke over there is called Mental Mike. And that one over there is called Puddle. And that one over there is Nicky Turd. And so on, until hed been through everyone in the room he knew.
But the ten minutes I spent talking to Bong made history. Well, not history like bc or . Not historical history, unless one of us goes on to i a time mae or stops Britain from being invaded by Al-Qaida or something. But who knows what would have happeo us if Bong hadnt fancied me? Because before he started chatting me up I was just about to go home, and Maureen and Martin would be dead now, probably, and… well, everything would have been different.
When Bong had finished going through his list, he looked at me and he went, Youre not thinking of going up on the roof, are you? And I thought, Not with you, stoner-brain. And he went, Because I see the pain and desperation in your eyes. I was well pissed by that time, so looking ba it, Im pretty sure that what he could see in my eyes were seven Bacardi Breezers and two s of Special Brew. I just went, Oh, really? And he went, Yeah, see, Ive been put on suicide watch, to look out for people whove only e here because they want to go upstairs. And I was like, What happens upstairs? And he laughed, a, Youre joking, arent you? This is Toppers House, man. This is where people kill themselves.
And I would never have thought of it if he hadnt said that. Everything suddenly made sense. Because even though Id been about to go home, I couldnt imagine what Id do when I got there, and I couldnt imagine waking up in the m. I wanted Chas, and he didnt want me, and I suddenly realized that easily the best thing to do was make my life as short as I possibly could. I almost laughed, it was so : I wao make my life short, and I was at a party in Toppers House, and the ce was too much. It was like a message from God. OK, it was disappointing that all God had to say to me was, like, Jump off a roof, but I didnt blame him.
What else was he supposed to tell me?
I could feel the weight of everything then - the weight of loneliness, of everything that had gone wrong. I felt heroic, going up those last few flights to the top of the building, dragging that weight along with me.
Jumpi like the only way to get rid of it, the only way to make it work for me instead of against me; I felt so heavy that I knew Id hit the street in no time. Id beat the world record for falling off a tower-block.
MARTIN If she hadnt tried to kill me, Id be dead, no question. But weve all got a preservation instinct, havent we? Even if were trying to kill ourselves when it kicks in. All I know is that I felt this thump on my back, and I turned round and grabbed the railings behind me, and I started yelling. I was drunk by then. Id been taking nips out of the old hip-flask for a while, and Id had a skinful before I came out, as well. (I know, I know, I shouldnt have driven. But I wasnt going to take the fug stepladder on the bus.) So, yes, I probably did let rip with a bit of vocabulary. If Id known it was Maureen, if Id known what Maureen was like, then I would have to down a bit, probably, but I didnt; I think I might even have used the c- word, for which Ive apologized. But youd have to admit it was a uuation.
I stood up and turned round carefully, because I didnt want to fall off until I chose to, and I started yelling at her, and she just stared.
I know you, she said.
How? I was being slow. People e up to me iaurants and shops and theatres and garages and urinals all over Britain and say, I know you, and they invariably mean precisely the opposite; they mean, I dont know you. But Ive seen you oelly. And they want an autograph, or a chat about enny Chambers is really like, in real life. But that night, I just wasnt expeg it. It all seemed a bit beside the point, that side of life.
From the television.
Oh, for Christs sake. I was about to kill myself, but never mind, theres always time for an autograph. Have you got a pen? Or a bit of paper? And before you ask, shes a right bitch who will snort anything and fuybody. What are you doing up here anyway? I was… I was going to jump too. I wao borrow your ladder.
Thats what everything es down to: ladders. Well, not ladders literally; the Middle East peace process doesnt e down to ladders, and nor do the money markets. But ohing I know from interviewing people on the show is that you reduce the most enormous topics down to the ti parts, as if life were an Airfix model. Ive heard a religious leader attribute his faith to a faulty cat a garden shed (he got locked in for a night when he was a kid, and God guided him through the darkness); Ive heard a hostage describe how he survived because one of his captors was fasated by the London Zoo family dist card he kept in his wallet.
You want to talk about big things, but its the catches on the garden sheds and the London Zoo cards that give you the footholds; without them you wouldnt know where to start. Not if youre hosting Rise and Shih Penny and Martin you dont, anyway. Maureen and I couldnt talk about ere so unhappy that we wanted our brains to spill out onto the crete like a Malds milk shake, so we talked about the ladder instead. Be my guest.
Ill wait until… Well, Ill wait.
So youre just going to stand there and watch? No. Of course not. Youll be wanting to do it on your own, Id imagine.
Youd imagine right.
Ill go over there. She gestured to the other side of the roof. Ill give you a shout on the way down. I laughed, but she didnt.
e on. That wasnt a bad gag. In the circumstances.
I suppose Im not in the mood, Mr Sharp.
I dont think she was trying to be funny, but what she said made me laugh even more. Maureeo the other side of the roof, and sat down with her back against the far wall. I turned around and lowered myself ba to the ledge. But I couldnt trate. The moment had gone. Youre probably thinking, How much tration does a mao throw himself off the top of a high building? Well, youd be surprised. Before Maureen arrived Id been in the zone; I was in a place where it would have been easy to push myself off. I was entirely focused on all the reasons I there in the first place; I uood with a horrible clarity the impossibility of attempting to resume life down on the ground.
But the versation with her had distracted me, pulled me back out into the world, into the cold and the wind and the noise of the thumping bass seven floors below. I couldhe mood back; it was as if one of the kids had woken up just as dy and I were starting to make love. I hadnt ged my mind, and I still khat Id have to do it some time.
Its just that I knew I wasnt going to be able to do it in the five minutes. I shouted at Maureen.
Oi! Do you want to slaces? See how you get on? And I laughed again. I was, I felt, on a edy roll, drunk enough - and, I suppose, deranged enough - to feel that just about anything I said would be hilarious.
Maureen came out of the shadows and approached the brea the wire fence cautiously.
I want to be on my own, too, she said.
You will be. Youve got twenty mihen I want my spot back.
How are you going to get back over this side? I hadnt thought of that.
The stepladder really only worked one way: there wasnt enough room on my side of the railings to open it out.
Youll have to hold it. What do you mean? You hand it over the top to me. Ill put it flush against the railings. You hold it steady from that side.
Id never be able to keep it in place. Youre too heavy.
And she was too light. She was small, but she carried at all; I wondered whether she wao kill herself because she didnt want to die a long and painful death from some disease or other.
So youll have to put up with me being here.
I wasnt sure that I wao climb over to the other side anyway. The railings marked out a boundary now: you could get to the stairs from the roof, and the street from the stairs, and from the street you could get to dy, and the kids, and Danielle, and her dad, and everything else that had blown me up here as if I were a crisp packet in a gale. The ledge felt safe.
There was no humiliation and shame there - beyond the humiliation and shame youd expect to feel if you were sitting on a ledge, on your own, on New Years Eve.
Why t you shuffle round to the other side of the roof? Why t you? Its my ladder.
Youre not much of a gentleman.
No, Im fug not. Thats one of the reasons Im up here, in fact. Dont you read the papers? I look at the local one sometimes.
So what do you know about me? You used to be oV.
Thats it? I think so. She thought for a moment. Were you married to someone in Abba? No.
Or another singer? No.
Oh. And you like mushrooms, I know that.
Mushrooms? You said. I remember. There was one of those chef fellas iudio, and he gave you something to taste, and you said, "Mmmm, I love mushrooms. I could eat them all day." Was that you? It might have been. But thats all you dredge up? Yes.
So why do you think I want to kill myself? Ive no idea.
Youre pissing me around.
Would you mind watg your language? I find it offensive.
Im sorry.
But I couldnt believe it. I couldnt believe Id found someone who didnt know. Before I went to prison, I used to wake up in the m and the tabloid scum were waiting outside the front door. I had crisis meetings with agents and managers and TV executives. It seemed impossible that there was anyone in Britain ued in what I had done, mostly because I lived in a world where it was the only thing that seemed to matter. Maybe Maureen lived on the roof, I thought. It would be easy to lose touch up there.
What about your belt? She my waist. As far as Maureen was ed, these were her last few moments oh. She didnt want to spend them talking about my passion for mushrooms (a passion which, I fear, may have been manufactured for the camera anyway). She wao get on with things.
What about it? Take your belt off and put it round the ladder. Buckle it your side of the railings.
I saw what she meant, and saw that it would work, and for the couple of minutes we worked in a panionable silence; she passed the ladder over the fence, and I took my belt off, passed it around both ladder and railings, pulled it tight, buckled it up, gave it a shake to check it would hold. I really didnt want to die falling backwards. I climbed back over, we unbuckled the belt, placed the ladder in its inal position.
And I was just about to let Maureen jump in peace when this fug lunatic came r at us.
<strong>JESS</strong>
I shouldnt have made the hat was my mistake. I mean, that was my mistake if the idea was to kill myself. I could have just walked, quickly and quietly and calmly, to the place where Martin had cut through the wire, climbed the ladder and then jumped. But I didnt. I yelled something like, Out of the way, losers! and made this Red Indian war-whoop noise, as if it were all a game - which it was, at that point, to me, anyway - and Martin rugby-tackled me before I got halfway there. And then he sort of kneeled on me and ground my fato that sort of gritty fake-Tarmac stuff they put oops of buildings. Then I really did want to be dead.
I didnt know it was Martin. I never saw anything, really, until he was rubbing my nose in the dirt, and then I just saw dirt. But I knew what the two of them were doing up there the moment I got to the roof. You didnt have to be like a genius to work that out. So when he was sitting on me I went, So how e you two are allowed to kill yourselves and Im not?
And he goes, Youre too young. Weve fucked our lives up. You havent, yet. And I said, How do you know that? And he goes, No ones fucked their lives up at ye. And I was like, What if Ive murdered ten people?
Including my parents and, I dont know, my baby twins? And he went, Well have you? And I said, Yeah, I have. (Even though I hadnt. I just wao see what hed say.) And he went, Well, if youre up here, youve got away with it, havent you? Id get on a plao Brazil if I were you. And I said, What if I want to pay for what Ive doh my life? And he said, Shut up.
MARTIN My first thought, after Id brought Jess crashing to the ground, was that I didnt want Maureen sneaking off on her own. It was nothing to do with trying to save her life; it would simply have pissed me off if shed taken advantage of my distra and jumped. Oh, none of it makes much sewo minutes before, Id been practically ushering her over. But I didnt see why Jess should be my responsibility and not hers, and I didnt see why she should be the oo use the ladder when Id carted it all the there. So my motives were essentially selfish; nothihere, as dy would tell you.
After Jess and I had had our idiotiversation about how shed killed lots of people, I shouted at Maureen to e and help me. She looked frightened, and then dawdled her way over to us.
Get a bloody move on.
What do you wao do? Sit on her.
Maureen sat on Jesss arse, and I k on her arms.
Just let me go, you old bastard pervert. Yetting a thrill out of this, arent you? Well, obviously that stung a bit, give events. I thought for a moment Jess might have known who I was, but even Im not that paranoid.
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